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May. 27th, 2026 04:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
xindigosaberx I'm trying. I guess some days the effort is all you can do. Spider got me last night, there's bites all along my back and hip in random spots. Finished my second college course. Been struggling to find my place in a writing group only to remember suddenly that the reason I'd left the site years ago was because it was started and primarily maintained by the ex husband of my ex best friend as well as the 'friend' I cut ties with for doing passive aggressive shit to me on Facebook at that time and laughing with her other friends about it like they were any higher in life than I was. I left because all of those issues together represented a highly toxic environment and yet I somehow forgot and moved on like normal people do, of COURSE they didn't. Feeling pretty stupid over that. Angry too, because I was all hurt and feeling rejected only to remember the people on this site would never see eye to eye with the person who helped a once friend escape a DV situation one of the site owners caused- because no one hears that part of the story. They'd also never see eye to eye with boundaries on passive aggressive behavior because they find passive aggression funny and entertaining...or simply writing...because it doesn't seem to me like many of the people on this site do much of that in the first place.
I'm deciding now if I'm even going to stay. I don't know if I will. In spite of wanting to collaborate, I more so just want to write the stories I have inside me, and I don't really need anyone else's support or collaboration for that.
LOTS of drama from my kid, drama in the house I'm trying to stay out of, banging and loud noises at all hours, I keep hearing the sound of a man talking in the early morning hours(in between 1am and 4am) and I can't figure out where it's coming from even just to know it's a TV would be a comfort after everything we endured at the last house. Been feeling pretty under the weather the last few days, feel like my body is fighting a flu. It's pretty uncomfortable here currently.
I'm deciding now if I'm even going to stay. I don't know if I will. In spite of wanting to collaborate, I more so just want to write the stories I have inside me, and I don't really need anyone else's support or collaboration for that.
LOTS of drama from my kid, drama in the house I'm trying to stay out of, banging and loud noises at all hours, I keep hearing the sound of a man talking in the early morning hours(in between 1am and 4am) and I can't figure out where it's coming from even just to know it's a TV would be a comfort after everything we endured at the last house. Been feeling pretty under the weather the last few days, feel like my body is fighting a flu. It's pretty uncomfortable here currently.
