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Mar. 15th, 2026 01:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
xindigosaberx Woke up today and it was the first day since my supposed spider bite that I didn't have a splitting headache. No idea what got me, I killed a wolf spider in my room the day after the initial bite but the reaction was weird. The effects have lasted almost 3 weeks. Doctor said it was a localized reaction, meaning it stuck to one area and didn't spread but he was dubious about it being a wolf spider and now I'm wondering that myself. Had a lot of neurological symptoms like fatigue, dizzy spells, stiff neck, sensitive to light and headache in the first week with the headache and sensitivity to light lasting even longer. Had to fish out what appeared to be an abscess the second week(which is really gross and I do NOT recommend it) the infection symptoms stopped after I did that and it finally started to heal. Now that it's finally closed up and the swelling is almost gone, I'm wondering wtf happened. My energy levels have been slowly returning as well. I feel sleepy today but with no headache I feel pretty close to normal again. I even had pleasant dreams last night for the first time in I don't know how long.
Cleaned my room today, now I just have to do the floors. I've been doing chores across the house a little bit every day whether it's cleaning the bathroom or tidying up in the kitchen or taking out trash. I'm worried because we share all our tasks that I'll get out of the habit if I don't maintain it and I don't want to have to retrain myself once I'm on my own again. I'm feeling pretty grateful again today looking around and realizing how blessed I am for the transitional program I'm in that I can walk to work, work a damn good job full time AND go to school full time and be this able to make it all work because of it. That's an aid program that WORKS.
I'm probably still going to lose my car, but its not the end of the world I guess. I really do love that little car, it's quirky color and the surprising pep it's got for a tiny 3 door coupe. But in time as things stabilize financially and I finish up my education, I can get another. I can buy a tricycle with a basket for now and transport myself to the very nearby grocery stores and gas stations for necessities, there's always Amazon for other items, I'll make it work. This little town has literally everything I need to make a life without a car for a few years. I even found two absolutely gorgeous parks within walking distance so I can get plenty of exercise outdoors. The local bus even goes from my nearby stop to the library and back on it's regular circuit. I still can't help but feel like I landed exactly where what I prayed for could happen. I asked for just a chance to pursue my dreams and I got it.
Cleaned my room today, now I just have to do the floors. I've been doing chores across the house a little bit every day whether it's cleaning the bathroom or tidying up in the kitchen or taking out trash. I'm worried because we share all our tasks that I'll get out of the habit if I don't maintain it and I don't want to have to retrain myself once I'm on my own again. I'm feeling pretty grateful again today looking around and realizing how blessed I am for the transitional program I'm in that I can walk to work, work a damn good job full time AND go to school full time and be this able to make it all work because of it. That's an aid program that WORKS.
I'm probably still going to lose my car, but its not the end of the world I guess. I really do love that little car, it's quirky color and the surprising pep it's got for a tiny 3 door coupe. But in time as things stabilize financially and I finish up my education, I can get another. I can buy a tricycle with a basket for now and transport myself to the very nearby grocery stores and gas stations for necessities, there's always Amazon for other items, I'll make it work. This little town has literally everything I need to make a life without a car for a few years. I even found two absolutely gorgeous parks within walking distance so I can get plenty of exercise outdoors. The local bus even goes from my nearby stop to the library and back on it's regular circuit. I still can't help but feel like I landed exactly where what I prayed for could happen. I asked for just a chance to pursue my dreams and I got it.
